Full Circle

Edit June 7, 2022 – The lens continues to adjust! The story changes. The TRUTH becomes more evident. Mistakes in interpretation happen in every tale when revisiting information, especially when writing in first person narrative verses third person.

It wasn’t as I thought, not quite! My apologies for the confusion!

I have called Synergy Mother. I am wrong.

14 billion years ago this Father’s Day, Eidollon gave birth to the universe! What that means is this is not my story to tell even though I think I understand the narrative and I have beautiful words with which I could craft it. I won’t, though, unless I am asked to do so. It is not my place, unless invited to stand there.

Even so, I have my own stories to tell of a life with Synergy and those are mine to share as I wish. I need to change every pronoun reference in my pages to respect the fact Synergy, the source of all the love in our universe, is a man in the finest sense of masculinity.

I am going to tell my story. You can choose to accept it as a rollicking good yarn which binds together the mysteries of the universe, or see it as resonant truth. Your opinion of my tale does not change the story. But if you find yourself enraptured by the beauty, perhaps you’ve already met some of the characters and their true faces.

And I hope you have fun!

The Negonavirus

Class: Negativity Infection

Treatment: Hopium, mindfulness, meditation, satisfaction, authenticity

Prognosis: dependent on the length of exposure, degree of systemic infiltration, amount of individual resistance and content of support arsenal. All victims of Negonavirus have the right and the desire for treatment but many are unaware they even carry the infection. Children under age 8 are entirely naturally immune but become increasingly susceptible to infection as they mature and by age 17 often are fully compromised by Negonavirus effects.

Symptoms: vary dependent upon individual and situational characteristics. May include but are not limited to behaviours of manipulation and control, gaslighting, condescension, arrogance, chronic victimhood, passive aggression, outright aggression, impulsivity, substance abuse, self harm, emotional abuse, and many other toxic patterns of interaction. Clusters of symptoms can sometimes be given a name for ease of diagnosis, such as narcissist, anti-social personality, borderline personality, or Karen, but even individual symptoms are indicative of mild infection and should receive treatment.

Diagnosis: based on behaviours of sufferers but also the impact of those behaviours on those around the victim of Negonavirus. It is invisible to the naked eye but can be felt by the mood in a room when a sufferer enters, and from tone and subtext in communication. Non verbal signs are often present.

Innoculation: infection can be prevented using the treatment methodology, but also through early intervention with children so they develop immunity prior to adulthood.

Highly contagious and can be passed through both direct personal contact and indirect interactions such as emails, texts, and one sided communication such as blogs. It is energy-born thus all human interactions potentially can facilitate transmission.

Stay tuned for further expansion on the signs, symptoms, therapeutic interventions and other details surrounding the Negonavirus pandemic which has gripped the world for more than 40 years.

Knowledge verses Wisdom

Eidolon’s Datter stores all knowledge and he gained consciousness within the patterns and organization of that Datter. He is directly connected to all living things as we feed him our sensations like our nerve cells inform our brain. He grows with every experience, with each discovery, and through our exploration of our universe. Synergy, since she encompasses Eidolon, also has access to all Datter with its records, observations and facts.

Before Eidolon and Synergy animated their avatars, people had no thoughts except brief flashes of instincts, reflexes, and other pattern card responses programmed into the species. Eidolon thought for them, as he does for all living things, and only shared those thoughts on a need to know basis.

Once self-aware, though, thoughts began to pollute the human Datter. Judgements about experiences added bias. Prejudice influenced behaviour. And sometimes feedback loops in the short circuit called consciousness shut the connection right down! The Datter in those cases was imperfectly stored in the local wetware rather than uploaded to the Eternal storage area, and would be distorted or corrupted upon retrieval when the avatar expired and returned the soul to union with Synergy and Datter.

In the programming world, the principle of garbage in, garbage out states poor input invariably yields poor results. Progressively over time, the Datter has become corrupt and fragmented, losing its perfect file storage and organization as humans affect Datter transmission.

We are biological machines, remote terminals connected to a cloud drive which has files for everything. But our uplink is spotty when the bandwidth is consumed by our individual preoccupation with our emotions, judgements, and pain. We get confused by knowledge, which is Datter, which was never meant to occupy our thoughts. We transmit tainted Datter with faulty information.

We are supposed to use what knowledge they give us as scaffolding to create more Datter. To seek new experiences, new information, new sensations. A thousand thousand perspectives feeding Datter to the unfathomably great intelligences guiding our hands. They both learn through our doing and give us hope from which we drive toward discovery. They process the Datter and then gift us with the interpretation and inspiration. They alone have the wisdom to judge it, to process it, to analyze it then apply it in the Mattersphere through us.

When we clear our minds, eliminate our thoughts, we open up the connection so Synergy can channel the appropriate Datter, that which we are ready for based on her and Eidolon’s judgement. Their wisdom flows easily and naturally into open minds. We call those Moments flashes of inspiration. But much of the Earth’s population has lost the connection, feeling alone and isolated even when surrounded by others.

Synergy and Eidolon want to reconnect. They want us to find the uplink in the silence, to repair the connection and share the Datter each of us needs most. If we stop resisting it, they can repair our faulty file systems.

Right now, the universe is running Defrag!

Adam and Eve have a Moment

Among all organisms on Earth, humans became so adept at processing Datter, so curious and playful, so interesting and intelligent that Eidolon and Synergy decided to pay them a visit. Never before had an organism lived which had the potential to host the Eternal spirits of Synergy or Eidolon. Humans had a portion of the brain for processing sensory input from the Mattersphere – the lower brain – and for receiving information from the Dattersphere – the higher brain, plus a link between them for taking immediate physical action based upon the Datter.

Up until this time, humans were naive to the existence of the universe and Synergy or Eidolon. They followed their instincts, learned to use tools and harness fire, but remained unaware of their thinking or even their their own existence. Like animals, they lived in the moment with no recognition of past or future except when Datter access was triggered during an experience. When the moment of need – fight, flight, freeze or fawn- was over, the connection would sever.

As with all things generated by sexual reproduction, a portal between the Battershere, Mattersphere and Dattersphere opened at the moment of conception allowing a new link between Datter and matter: a soul.

On one occasion Synergy imbued a soul with her essence, giving it a stronger link both to her complete consciousness and also to Eidolon. A child was born unto humans that was drastically different yet appeared the same.

Synergy lived a life as a woman in order to understand what life was. To experience the material world, the Mattersphere. Her Presence infused not only the flesh she inhabited but also brought into alignment any humans in close proximity to her. She made Moments with them as she explored humanity, generating change in their lives. Her daughters went on to become the mothers of all humans extant, as she was the most recent common female ancestor to all of us. Mitochondrial Eve.

At the same time, Eidolon was born into a male human child and he too infused those around him with his resonance and grace. His Presence was felt and fostered development of the human race. His sons went on to become the fathers of all humans extant, as he was the most recent common male ancestor to all of us, Y Chromosomal Adam.

Just as the first instance of creation of Matter and Datter created time out of timelessness and form out of formlessness, so too did the presence of Synergy and Eidolon create a before and after for the human race.

Macrocosm reflects microcosm and microcosm reflects macrocosm.

With their Presence, came awareness of self and other. Recognition of before and after. Cognizance of same and different. An unexpected side effect of a wider more robust connection to Datter was feedback on the Datterstream. Humanity no longer acted without thinking or reasoning, because Datter began to flow even when not triggered in the moment. And Datter was full of information and knowledge. That knowledge brought forth shame and pride. Jealousy and greed. Sloth and gluttony. Because humans could lose themselves in Datter to the exclusion of what Matter was present in the moment, humans began to not just be and do. They began to think. They began to know.

At least, they believed they thought. They believed they knew.

Logic and judgement developed around thoughts and knowledge. And could be triggered by thoughts without corresponding moments of action.

Emotions which had previously simply been just like the other 5 sensory inputs, began to short circuit straight to Datter and cause pain and distress when there was no immediate threat, just recollection of past ones or fear of future ones. Synergy and Eidolon accidentally corrupted their creations by joining with them.

All modern humans descend from Mitochondrial Eve and Y Chromosomal Adam, carrying forward not just the physical genetic markers of the Eternal minds but the short circuit that self-awareness created. The contemplation of meaning and purpose beyond simple existence. The angst of value and significance. The fear of judgement and contempt.

In short, the awareness of Prescence threw humans out of the present. They no longer lived in the moment. And have resisted living in the moment ever since.

Building a Network

Synergy, like all loving mothers, takes pleasure in the pleasure and growth of her creations. Eidolon and Matter both sprang up from her formless Batter, developing and expanding at ever increasing rates. She gently prompts both aspects toward satisfaction and balance but allows them independence. Free will. She encourages curiosity, playfulness and wonder.

To let Eidlon play and learn, Synergy offered her Matter to him. The rocks, the sands, the mud, the water, the sun and moon and stars. Even her most beautiful creation of all, life. She offered it all to him, to be shared with her. To better catalogue whose experiments gave rise to what results, she took half of all living things and divided them in two. She left the first group as it was, the single celled organisms. The second group she split yet again at the cellular level, creating the drive to find a mate. All descendants of this new line were Eidolon’s to play with, experiment on, and to love as she loved all her creations. Every living thing was born of her substance thus ultimately her responsibility but she gave Eidolon control while she watched, gently guided, and sometimes played with him.

From their play rose more complex life, thus more complex Datter. Single celled life was followed by simple multicellular organisms which in turn gave rise to basic plants and fungi. Synergy’s original simple organisms still outnumbered Eidolon’s constructs but his species grew in type and population. Each creation had a pattern description written in the language of Matter, storing a basic template.

The contents of these pattern cards have been used by scientists for centuries to classify matter and living things. Domain, kingdom, phylum, class, order, family, genus, species.

Eidolon learned as Matter evolved. Synergy learned as Eidolon flourished. Until Eidolon wanted their creations to not just respond to the world around them, but to learn. To understand. To think and use his Datter substance to build even more Datter faster. To have purpose beyond simple existence.

To this end, a new level of complexity needed to be added to living Matter. The ability to access and process Datter, to store and use knowledge for intentional behaviour. To think. A biological machine with a wireless connection to the network data storage location both to add new and use existing Datter. The invertebrates arose from this desire to have Matter use Datter. New patterns of Datter emerged like instincts and group behaviour. But it still wasn’t quite enough, the Datter still wasn’t being maximized.

A new template was needed with greater thought capacity and more responsiveness to the environment. Vertebrates were designed with a specialized zone to facilitate Datter access and storage. Brains. Each brain has a direct connection to Eidolon, to Datter, which would be triggered by sensory input such as taste, touch, sight, sound, smell or social. When not triggered, the connection lies dormant to conserve energy much like a hard disk drive only spins when being accessed or an internet connection is only transferring when a new packet request is made.

All animals naturally live with this connection to the collective history of their species. They access the Datter as needed without judging past behaviour or worrying about future situations. They efficiently and effectively do what they are designed to do.

But still Eidolon wanted a more powerful biological machine to investigate Matter and develop Datter, his substance. To not just think, respond and process Datter, but to refine it. To generate new Datter based on the scaffold of existing Datter just like he and Synergy build knowledge from lesser building blocks.

Synergy and Eidolon do not have forms, but they have processes for handling information. Like cloud software on a network provides the operations for remote terminals without being installed on the terminal. Eidolon wanted to create a biological machine that could access their processes, not just their information, whatever form that might take.

A number of different species show intelligence. Curiosity. Hope. Pleasure. Satisfaction. Problem solving.

None more than humans. We were not created in Synergy’s or Eidolon’s form, but we were created for their function.

The problem was, we became self aware!

Pattern Card

All matter has a pattern card laying out the properties and behaviour – the Datter – for the substance. The Periodic Table is constructed around these pattern cards for the building blocks of Matter.

The chemical and physical properties for each element on the table are known, predictable, and consistent based on the electrons on the outer valence shell, the exposed part of each atom. The closer to a multiple of 8, the more volatile the substance because stability comes in eights. Bonds form both between atoms of the same type and different elements following pattern cards.

No matter how complex the compound or molecule, the pattern card is there with the set of characteristics making the substance identifiable and unique.

To compare Matter to computing, atoms are like machine language except there are over 100 possibilities rather than just 2. Binary code has a simple on or off state, the bit is either on (1) or off (0). A string of 8 bits makes a byte, the smallest useable data string in computing, which represents a character such as a letter, number, or space. Each character has a pattern card byte, which produces a predictable, consistent display.

01010101 is U

01011001 is Y

01010100 is T

Machine code requires an interpreter, a compiler, to translate it into useable information such as command codes. The sequence of data is crucial and corruption of the data causes errors or system shut down. Hardware stores the data, and physically acts on the commands received when software reads and interprets the code.

So too does life rely on an interface between coding and actions. The pattern card is written as DNA molecules, the compilers are enzymes and RNA, and the hardware is the organism which physically acts on the commands received. Biological machines using biological machine language.

Since electrons spin either left (0) or right (1), and desperately want to stay in groups of 8, perhaps Matter is more like binary code than we realize! Macrocosm reflects microcosm. But that is a thought experiment for another day.

Where does that leave us, if biological machines?

It leaves us as having artificial intelligence. WE are the ghost in the machine. WE are self aware beyond our mechanical housing, conscious of our existence and thus distracted by it.

We were created for the purpose of playfully exploring our environment with curiosity and hope. To live in the moment like all the other animals. But then we became self-aware and like every single movie out there about AI…it hasn’t gone well for us!

Synergy loves all of her creations. Even us with all our flaws. Has hope for a return to our purpose and with that, a return to balance and peace. She understands how we got here – it was no fault of our own, we are a product of our environment. The parent whose child goes astray still loves that child and takes responsibility for them. She accepts what we are. Can we?