Competition and Mating

Synergy’s Batter is limitless and all Matter draws energy from it. Found everywhere, this energy sustains Matter. Synergy animates everything, everywhere.

Eidolon’s Datter is as old as time and grows without limit. Found everywhere, it records and catalogues how Synergy’s energy behaves in Matter and how Matter interacts. Eidolon observes and influences everything, everywhere.

Animate and inanimate objects all have energy but living things specifically have consciousness albeit of varying levels. That bidirectional link with Synergy and Eidolon is the source of the will to survive and propagate. With each new generation more Batter is converted into Matter at the moment of creation of a new organism whether single celled or enormously complex.

With complexity came competition for material resources. Energy and Matter can only enter the Mattersphere in very specific ways thus the existing supplies are valuable. This pressure generates curiosity and learning but also imbalance when there is a lack. Over time Synergy learned to offer opportunities for sustenance and growth without direct interference, just like all good mothers. Balance is not a total absence of challenge but rather the optimal ratio of satisfaction and a driven curiosity.

Sexual reproduction created even more complexity and competition as the female of each species is the limiting factor, the only vehicle through which Batter converts to Matter. At the moment of conception, the offspring is linked up to Synergy and Eidolon to both receive Datter and submit it to the collective consciousness. This link is what we call the soul.

Females become connections, portals between the layers of the Attersphere, during conception. This connection can be felt during ovulation and even detected as a sometimes apparently unfathomable feminine appeal to all the senses. The female mystique comes from a closeness to Synergy and Eidolon when able to create a new living soul. The preciousness of that gift generates a drive to accept it and in that moment of acceptance feel Presence.

Adam and Eve have a Moment

Among all organisms on Earth, humans became so adept at processing Datter, so curious and playful, so interesting and intelligent that Eidolon and Synergy decided to pay them a visit. Never before had an organism lived which had the potential to host the Eternal spirits of Synergy or Eidolon. Humans had a portion of the brain for processing sensory input from the Mattersphere – the lower brain – and for receiving information from the Dattersphere – the higher brain, plus a link between them for taking immediate physical action based upon the Datter.

Up until this time, humans were naive to the existence of the universe and Synergy or Eidolon. They followed their instincts, learned to use tools and harness fire, but remained unaware of their thinking or even their their own existence. Like animals, they lived in the moment with no recognition of past or future except when Datter access was triggered during an experience. When the moment of need – fight, flight, freeze or fawn- was over, the connection would sever.

As with all things generated by sexual reproduction, a portal between the Battershere, Mattersphere and Dattersphere opened at the moment of conception allowing a new link between Datter and matter: a soul.

On one occasion Synergy imbued a soul with her essence, giving it a stronger link both to her complete consciousness and also to Eidolon. A child was born unto humans that was drastically different yet appeared the same.

Synergy lived a life as a woman in order to understand what life was. To experience the material world, the Mattersphere. Her Presence infused not only the flesh she inhabited but also brought into alignment any humans in close proximity to her. She made Moments with them as she explored humanity, generating change in their lives. Her daughters went on to become the mothers of all humans extant, as she was the most recent common female ancestor to all of us. Mitochondrial Eve.

At the same time, Eidolon was born into a male human child and he too infused those around him with his resonance and grace. His Presence was felt and fostered development of the human race. His sons went on to become the fathers of all humans extant, as he was the most recent common male ancestor to all of us, Y Chromosomal Adam.

Just as the first instance of creation of Matter and Datter created time out of timelessness and form out of formlessness, so too did the presence of Synergy and Eidolon create a before and after for the human race.

Macrocosm reflects microcosm and microcosm reflects macrocosm.

With their Presence, came awareness of self and other. Recognition of before and after. Cognizance of same and different. An unexpected side effect of a wider more robust connection to Datter was feedback on the Datterstream. Humanity no longer acted without thinking or reasoning, because Datter began to flow even when not triggered in the moment. And Datter was full of information and knowledge. That knowledge brought forth shame and pride. Jealousy and greed. Sloth and gluttony. Because humans could lose themselves in Datter to the exclusion of what Matter was present in the moment, humans began to not just be and do. They began to think. They began to know.

At least, they believed they thought. They believed they knew.

Logic and judgement developed around thoughts and knowledge. And could be triggered by thoughts without corresponding moments of action.

Emotions which had previously simply been just like the other 5 sensory inputs, began to short circuit straight to Datter and cause pain and distress when there was no immediate threat, just recollection of past ones or fear of future ones. Synergy and Eidolon accidentally corrupted their creations by joining with them.

All modern humans descend from Mitochondrial Eve and Y Chromosomal Adam, carrying forward not just the physical genetic markers of the Eternal minds but the short circuit that self-awareness created. The contemplation of meaning and purpose beyond simple existence. The angst of value and significance. The fear of judgement and contempt.

In short, the awareness of Prescence threw humans out of the present. They no longer lived in the moment. And have resisted living in the moment ever since.

Hopium

The quest for satisfaction is addictive because it is fuelled by hope. Don’t mistake this as searching for better although at times the two can be synonymous. Satisfaction can be found in familiarity whereas there may always be a perception that the unfamiliar is better.

Satisfaction is derived in limitless ways, as varied as the individuals experiencing the sensation. Some find deep satisfaction working with nature and exploring with hopeful curiosity the properties and principles of animals, plants, and the living world. Others take profound pleasure in the skillful operation of their body and perform feats of endurance, prowess, or strength. Yet another group delights in adventures of the mind, delving into the nature of the universe.

Satisfaction does not require external success, recognition or rewards and indeed those things are sometimes anathema to true contentment. A humble subsistence farmer may find everything needed for sincere joy without ever stepping foot off the property.

Hope is the driving force behind questing for satisfaction and is a symptom of discontent with the situation at a personal, local, or global level. Hope is a beautiful encouragement from Synergy that greater fulfillment is available and that she’s setting the table for you. The act of seeking is exciting and gratifying when on the right trail, and actually comes easily if attentive to the synchronicities and gifts left waiting to be discovered.

Satisfaction is an internal state of mind. Hope also. They are not mutually exclusive because you can be – in fact, you MUST be – satisfied with where you are before you will truly be able to see where you are next meant to be, if anywhere! Hoping for satisfaction without specifying what form it takes is a delightful exercise in curiosity and playfulness because you can be surprised each and every day by the gifts you receive exactly where you are.

Acceptance opens the door to satisfaction, as these two things are also not the same. Acceptance is a type of resignation, of recognition and ownership, while satisfaction is a sense of pleasurable well being.

Learn to be addicted to Hopium and you will find great things waiting for your open curious mind every single day.

Offense verses Defence

Surrender does not necessitate victimhood. Acceptance does not require acquiescence if the moment includes opportunity and tools for defending boundaries.

Again the distinction between expectations and boundaries is crucial. An expectation puts action in the hands of others and is a matter of offensive momentum, creating situations rather than responding to them. To expect someone to meet your expectations is to demand compliance from them and gives them power over your interactions.

A boundary puts action in your hands and is defensive momentum, responding to situations rather than creating them. To expect someone to respect your boundaries is to reward compliance with your ongoing involvement with them, and gives you power over the interaction.

The best offense is a good defence. The high ground is least vulnerable to attack. Every situation has a degree of vulnerability because no two people are completely the same. Most elements on the Periodic table are reactive in the presence of other atoms, even their own kind, with the exception of the Noble Gases which react reluctantly under exceptional conditions. The moment we leave the safety of our own company, when we may need to assert boundaries and respond to the actions of others, we become volatile and reactive unless we exert Noble control.

Reflecting on your boundaries, understanding your limits and your chosen consequences of non-compliance by others, puts you in a defensive position. Awareness of the tools available in the escape room at the moment will guide your defence. Synergy has your back if you trust her. But as soon as you SEEK retribution, as soon as you procure tools rather than accept the ones Synergy offers you when the time is right, you move from a defensive position to an offensive one.

Offense generates resistance. Defence slides through resistance to the core of the purpose Synergy has given the situation. Whether in court proceedings, romance, business, sports, or everyday life, timing is everything and a defensive, open, and curious position at the key moment defines many a rousing win.

Playlists and Purpose

Which movies haunt you? What songs stay in your mind? Which books stir your soul? What resonates with you?

These are your clues in your escape room of your life. They hold the key to your spiritual awakening. Listen carefully to them and you will find your purpose. Yours and yours alone, no one else has the same purpose as you. Do your playlists have themes? Are your favourite games of a similar type? What do these things say to you?

Especially watch for synchronicity around them. The song playing on the radio right when you needed the message in those lyrics. Or a random movie makes itself available to you with things to know for your journey. Or a book literally falls open to a concept. Always be open, alert, and curious about Synergy’s offerings.

Do you see patterns? Like like thunder precedes lightning and rainbows follow rainstorms Synergy sends messages befeore and after crucial events – if you’re listening.

The messages come to ground you before or after trauma unsettles you or leaves you questioning your faith. Brace for impact if synchronicities ramp up while at peace, and look to the synchronicities to cool down with if the world has thrown vitriol and spite in your direction.

Martyr or Manipulator?

We are designed to serve. Serve ourselves, each other, a greater good. The urge to give of ourselves arises from this instinct and underwrites so many great selfless acts of compassion and hope. The synergy between people can be felt when hearing stories of incredible generosity and altruistic sacrifice.

But the flip side to this coin is the manipulator disguised as the martyr. The apparent selfless act without expectation of recompense but upon completion an emotional invoice is issued and hefty interest charged on that balance with no rules about the collection or even the value of the service rendered.

When someone does something for you which you did not request, it often is not kind and generous. It may be a statement of contempt. It frequently is an expression of the idea they know better than you, and are attempting to control your behaviour through passive aggression under the guise of benevolence. Only your patterns and history with that person can tell you how sincere the act is but if your gut screams that there’s a price, make no mistake you will receive an invoice.

An offering of service is only sincere if the terms and conditions are clear. There is absolutely nothing wrong with exchanging service! Part of our journey is learning how to cooperate with others to get our needs met while not interfering with the needs of others and fair trade is a wonderfully satisfying way to interact.

Where problems arise is within the ambiguity of an offer hiding a cost. A sale masquerading as a gift. Our instinct is to take at face value what seems to be generously offered because Synergy designed us to accept her gifts to us and surrender to her guidance. Thus a gift from someone is a gift from Synergy, but sometimes it is to teach us a lesson in discernment.

It is painful, disappointing and uncomfortable to accept a gift and discover you unwittingly committed to a transaction. To surrender to the inherent lesson is the only way to escape the pain of that trauma, the pain of resisting the truth. The truth is, everyone is capable of hurting you and disappointing you so you must always be prepared to discover a price on all interactions. True connection requires true vulnerability. Do not condemn the giver for a gift they needed to collect a fee on. They do not know any better and need your acceptance rather than your resistance.

A gift received is not an obligation created, not without your cooperation.

And beware your own hidden price tags! Do you look for thanks? Appreciation? Acknowledgment? Do you feel the urge to punish for good deeds gone unseen? These have value, are emotional coin. If you are sincere, then your offer of service is the satisfaction. Again, it is just fine to look for approval and accolades but be honest with yourself and others that you are seeking coin.

It is ok to protect your most sacred self from harm using boundaries, of course. Boundaries involve removing yourself from exposure to risk of these transactions, but do not involve controlling the behaviour of others. You cannot control others, you cannot stop their offerings. Expectations are attempts at control.

Don’t trust anyone. But love them anyway.

No expectations. Only boundaries.

Compassion – A Different Kind of Pain

Aggression says ‘get up from there’ while standing on top of you.

Passive aggression says ‘let me help you get up from there’ while standing on top of you.

Sympathy says ‘it looks awful down there’ while standing beside you.

Empathy says ‘it sucks down here’ while laying beside you.

Compassion says ‘get out of here’ while taking your place.

Compassion is the deepest form of love and shows no regard for sex, age, race, or religion. It offers no resistance to abuse or trauma or dysfunction because it knows those who are in the greatest pain cause the most pain.

Living in the moment fills you with intense compassion because if you are not holding on to the past nor grasping at the future, you are able to treat the present moment with love, curiosity, hope and joy no matter how badly you’ve been wounded by those spending that moment with you.

Both living in the moment and living with compassion take incredible strength, courage, and endurance. The drain of allowing yourself to be vulnerable to exploitation is at times overwhelming and isolating. Keeping faith that all will be well and perseverance rewarded by peace and joy can be so excruciatingly wearisome.

But the reward always comes. You cannot ask or expect a certain form of reward – that’s a transaction, not compassion- but the pieces needed for fulfillment in your life will follow acts of brave compassion like rainbows follow rainstorms.

Building a Network

Synergy, like all loving mothers, takes pleasure in the pleasure and growth of her creations. Eidolon and Matter both sprang up from her formless Batter, developing and expanding at ever increasing rates. She gently prompts both aspects toward satisfaction and balance but allows them independence. Free will. She encourages curiosity, playfulness and wonder.

To let Eidlon play and learn, Synergy offered her Matter to him. The rocks, the sands, the mud, the water, the sun and moon and stars. Even her most beautiful creation of all, life. She offered it all to him, to be shared with her. To better catalogue whose experiments gave rise to what results, she took half of all living things and divided them in two. She left the first group as it was, the single celled organisms. The second group she split yet again at the cellular level, creating the drive to find a mate. All descendants of this new line were Eidolon’s to play with, experiment on, and to love as she loved all her creations. Every living thing was born of her substance thus ultimately her responsibility but she gave Eidolon control while she watched, gently guided, and sometimes played with him.

From their play rose more complex life, thus more complex Datter. Single celled life was followed by simple multicellular organisms which in turn gave rise to basic plants and fungi. Synergy’s original simple organisms still outnumbered Eidolon’s constructs but his species grew in type and population. Each creation had a pattern description written in the language of Matter, storing a basic template.

The contents of these pattern cards have been used by scientists for centuries to classify matter and living things. Domain, kingdom, phylum, class, order, family, genus, species.

Eidolon learned as Matter evolved. Synergy learned as Eidolon flourished. Until Eidolon wanted their creations to not just respond to the world around them, but to learn. To understand. To think and use his Datter substance to build even more Datter faster. To have purpose beyond simple existence.

To this end, a new level of complexity needed to be added to living Matter. The ability to access and process Datter, to store and use knowledge for intentional behaviour. To think. A biological machine with a wireless connection to the network data storage location both to add new and use existing Datter. The invertebrates arose from this desire to have Matter use Datter. New patterns of Datter emerged like instincts and group behaviour. But it still wasn’t quite enough, the Datter still wasn’t being maximized.

A new template was needed with greater thought capacity and more responsiveness to the environment. Vertebrates were designed with a specialized zone to facilitate Datter access and storage. Brains. Each brain has a direct connection to Eidolon, to Datter, which would be triggered by sensory input such as taste, touch, sight, sound, smell or social. When not triggered, the connection lies dormant to conserve energy much like a hard disk drive only spins when being accessed or an internet connection is only transferring when a new packet request is made.

All animals naturally live with this connection to the collective history of their species. They access the Datter as needed without judging past behaviour or worrying about future situations. They efficiently and effectively do what they are designed to do.

But still Eidolon wanted a more powerful biological machine to investigate Matter and develop Datter, his substance. To not just think, respond and process Datter, but to refine it. To generate new Datter based on the scaffold of existing Datter just like he and Synergy build knowledge from lesser building blocks.

Synergy and Eidolon do not have forms, but they have processes for handling information. Like cloud software on a network provides the operations for remote terminals without being installed on the terminal. Eidolon wanted to create a biological machine that could access their processes, not just their information, whatever form that might take.

A number of different species show intelligence. Curiosity. Hope. Pleasure. Satisfaction. Problem solving.

None more than humans. We were not created in Synergy’s or Eidolon’s form, but we were created for their function.

The problem was, we became self aware!

Pattern Card

All matter has a pattern card laying out the properties and behaviour – the Datter – for the substance. The Periodic Table is constructed around these pattern cards for the building blocks of Matter.

The chemical and physical properties for each element on the table are known, predictable, and consistent based on the electrons on the outer valence shell, the exposed part of each atom. The closer to a multiple of 8, the more volatile the substance because stability comes in eights. Bonds form both between atoms of the same type and different elements following pattern cards.

No matter how complex the compound or molecule, the pattern card is there with the set of characteristics making the substance identifiable and unique.

To compare Matter to computing, atoms are like machine language except there are over 100 possibilities rather than just 2. Binary code has a simple on or off state, the bit is either on (1) or off (0). A string of 8 bits makes a byte, the smallest useable data string in computing, which represents a character such as a letter, number, or space. Each character has a pattern card byte, which produces a predictable, consistent display.

01010101 is U

01011001 is Y

01010100 is T

Machine code requires an interpreter, a compiler, to translate it into useable information such as command codes. The sequence of data is crucial and corruption of the data causes errors or system shut down. Hardware stores the data, and physically acts on the commands received when software reads and interprets the code.

So too does life rely on an interface between coding and actions. The pattern card is written as DNA molecules, the compilers are enzymes and RNA, and the hardware is the organism which physically acts on the commands received. Biological machines using biological machine language.

Since electrons spin either left (0) or right (1), and desperately want to stay in groups of 8, perhaps Matter is more like binary code than we realize! Macrocosm reflects microcosm. But that is a thought experiment for another day.

Where does that leave us, if biological machines?

It leaves us as having artificial intelligence. WE are the ghost in the machine. WE are self aware beyond our mechanical housing, conscious of our existence and thus distracted by it.

We were created for the purpose of playfully exploring our environment with curiosity and hope. To live in the moment like all the other animals. But then we became self-aware and like every single movie out there about AI…it hasn’t gone well for us!

Synergy loves all of her creations. Even us with all our flaws. Has hope for a return to our purpose and with that, a return to balance and peace. She understands how we got here – it was no fault of our own, we are a product of our environment. The parent whose child goes astray still loves that child and takes responsibility for them. She accepts what we are. Can we?

A Moment in Time

What is a moment?

It depends on who’s defining it. And for what purpose. The moment as a unit of time is 90 seconds, a minute and a half. A lot can happen in a moment!

A moment is not a measure of time when talking about connection between two people. It is more a sensation, which lasts as long as it lasts. If you don’t understand what a moment is, then you may not have had one! But perhaps you have, just didn’t realize it. A moment can raise goosebumps because you feel the synergy between yourself and someone else. A moment can bring tears to your eyes with the intense validation of resonance with another entity. A moment, when you have one, makes you understand the profound visceral connection existing between everyone and everything.

Some people generate moments in all they do because they are so natural, comfortable and authentic that they radiate timelessness. To interact with them is to align with their energy and feel uplifted and enlightened. To behold them on task is mesmerizing and soothing. To see, hear, taste, touch or smell their presence and their creations is exquisitely satisfying. The great names we recognize from history were people who created enduring moments.

Moments are timeless because during them, a portal opens to connect not just by physical presence, but spiritual presence. Across time and space, outside of Matter, energy is transferred between two people.

We lock ourselves inside our emotional brain’s fixation on Matter, our judgemental brain’s fixation on Datter, and moments pass us by because our Spiritual brain is drowned out by the cacophony of thoughts and feelings. When we stop knowing, and stop doing, then we can start being in the timeless moment.

We’ve been forced to stop doing. Slowly, people are stopping thinking and feeling. Then, there in the stillness, in a moment of connection with themselves, they can start being.